Baby Weight

This last weekend I promised myself that I would start to actively work on loosing the weight.
My baby sleeps well at night and if I go to sleep with her I should be able to get up an hour before the kids in the morning and do something like exercise. I have actually been feeling motivated. But, my angel son has decided that he will now be getting up at 6:00 daylight savings time and all. I cannot figure out his motivation. He isn't his usual pleasant self either, he is also determined to wake the rest of the house with him, and does a good job especially waking his little sister. So this week I have been pleasantly arising with 2 small children at 6:00. So much for exercise.

Honestly I'm feeling a little depressed about the whole thing. Today I seriously debated going to buy some "larger" pants. The maternity clothes don't work as well without the belly that has substance to it, but I cannot fit into any of my "normal" clothes. So, I'm at an impasse. The real depressing thing is that these "normal" clothes I am not even close to fitting into were clothes I could wear soon after my son's birth. Ugh. So, now I am faced with the question of "to buy or not to buy".

My internal arguments go something like this: If I don't buy bigger clothes I will be motivated to loose the weight just to be able to wear my normal clothes. But, is it a question of motivation or fitting in the workout with my early risers cuz I sure can't muster up the energy at night, I drag myself to bed.

On the other hand, it would sure be nice to feel like I look good in my clothes. I hate trying on my clothes every week hoping that by some miracle I'll be able to squeeze into them and look good doing it. Hmmm. I will contemplate this issue further and report back on my decision.