Tuesday, December 9, 2008

Closer to birth

As I get closer to giving birth, I find myself thinking about my birth plan. I know that some people don't even worry about it and just let things happen, and I know that some people have very detailed plans. I did not write one with Antony, but as I think back on his birth, there are a few things that I didn't like and I find myself wondering what my options are. I wonder about the hospital procedures and the things they do with the babies and I want things differently.

I have also been reading my friend's blog. She has chosen to have 2 home births and is currently one week ahead of me on her 4th child and third home birth. I just read her current situation and her description of home birth vs hospital birth. After reading her feelings, I find myself longing for the birthing freedom's of home birth. I want my child to be placed on my stomach and to be able to hold her as long as I feel necessary before they do anything to her. I don't like my baby put under bright lights, I don't like the poking and prodding. I don't want her to have to be taken away from me at all. I don't want a bossy nurse that has "done this since before you were born", or one that wants me to bottle feed my child when I am struggling with nursing. I want understanding gentle women that realize it is my experience with my child. And if I ask for something to be different, I don't want to worry that my care will be compromised and that they will talk behind my back.

I was able to labor at home for 33 hours with Antony. I think that is what made it so nice for me. I enjoyed that experience and I appreciated the privacy and the process. I handled the pain well and I really cherish that experience. It was the second they told me that I had to sit down on the bed that I realized I was in a lot of pain that I knew I couldn't finish the way I had been doing it. If I would have had the option, I would have continued to walk through the pain and tried to have him naturally. I did not like sleeping in the hospital, the bed was horrible.

After reading my friend's blog, I think I will be writing a birthing plan and I think that I will be more demanding. I have not been planning for a home birth, I don't have that option at this point, but I think I can make my hospital experience more like I want it to be. Well, I hope..

3 comments:

Jennifer said...

Hey Rach, I wish I had the choise to chose between home or hospital birth. If I was givin the chance I'm not sure what way I would go but you know me and my medical history with pregnancy. Good luck with everything keep us up to date
on when your precious daughter arrives.

Eden said...

Rachel--Awesome!! I'm so thrilled with your thought process. I too would opt for home birth if I ever have the chance to get pregnant. I really agree with you about wanting to be surrounded by gentle women and not forced to do things I don't want to do. I love your whole thought process on this.

Eden said...

Sorry, Rachael. Didn't spell check. My assistant's name is Rachel so I must have been in auto mode.